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the wind

today i finally sat down and decided to do something creative.


ink on paper, scanned an digitally painted


hope you like it.
in means what you want it to mean.


only when you get blind you see how beautiful the world was.
so look now!!!
03-31-2007 01:45 AM
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it reminds me of Peter Max's drawings from the movie Yellow Submarine.

your guy is heading for a fall?
and what is with the tenacles? kinda creepy

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Pushing for the surreal there. I like it!

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You said "it means what ever we want it to"?
What I see is

The subject is not at all happy {tears flowing freely
He isn't beaten yet .. the ! {says he is still determined but
what is that reptilian thing trying to escape from inside him?

Held up by his "hopes for joy" {balloons are a symbol of joy & pleasure
His severed hand is pointing the way.

Where's the rest of him?
Did he have to "sever" himself so he could get away?
Was he so enslaved that the only part of himself he could set free was his mind?

The ships in the cloud are his dreams.
They keep him aloft and are trying to pull him on course.

The arrow makes me think of Cupid's arrow but
the barbs on it don't seem friendly.
Maybe it is sent by those who occupy the buildings below?
Is it their way of making sure no one gets away?

This guy's biggest problem is his own self {the top of his head is giving way.
If he can't stay connected to his hopes & dreams he'll lose the power to rise above the madness.

The title} Wind is something we can't control.
"a leaf on the wind" {I knew someone who lived like that.

Maybe it is just me but the tenacles suggest coldness.
A reptile uses it's tenacles to capture & devour.

If he wishes to ascend he will need to let go of the beast within.

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ann, you say the best things about my painting!
when i show my paintings to people they immediately ask what does it mean.
i ask what do you think? hoping for an interesting answer.
but they just lock up. they say we dont know and end it there. ask me again for the "right" answer. they just dont dare to think by them self.
this makes me sad.
i like the way you looked at it though.
specially this part:
"Maybe it is sent by those who occupy the buildings below?
Is it their way of making sure no one gets away?"

did you notice that the building underneath are fucked up? i meant them to mean the system (government, school, parents..)
and i like how you said that the guy is FALLING! i was looking at him as he is trying to fly!
my meaning is that the cloud is hope , hope for freedom (freedom to think) but the system dont like that so they are trying to kill the hope. the purple thing is there effect on him, the stuff they tough him. the balloons are the pathetic plan B so incase the cloud fails to rise him up. it wont work and he knows it, thats why he is crying. i dont know what the ! mean though .. maybe he is surprised, he took freedom for granted , he didnt know he wont have it for ever.



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so look now!!!
04-03-2007 03:24 AM
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northfork Wrote:

ann, you say the best things about my painting!
when i show my paintings to people they immediately ask what does it mean.
i ask what do you think? hoping for an interesting answer.
but they just lock up. they say we dont know and end it there. ask me again for the "right" answer. they just dont dare to think by them self.
this makes me sad.
i like the way you looked at it though.
specially this part:
"Maybe it is sent by those who occupy the buildings below?
Is it their way of making sure no one gets away?"

did you notice that the building underneath are fucked up?

No, I didn't notice, they just look like shadows.
northfork Wrote:

i meant them to mean the system (government, school, parents..)
and i like how you said that the guy is FALLING! i was looking at him as he is trying to fly!

He is becoming detached = going to fall
northfork Wrote:

my meaning is that the cloud is hope , hope for freedom (freedom to think) but the system dont like that so they are trying to kill the hope. the purple thing is there effect on him, the stuff they tough him. the balloons are the pathetic plan B so incase the cloud fails to rise him up. it wont work and he knows it, thats why he is crying.

the "octapus" is a great metaphore for "the system"
It gets us fighting it's tenacles and we can't win, there are too many of them.
Gotta go for it's Eye!
He let himself get separated.
That is how come he can't follow his hand with the balloons.
He has to gather himself together [own All his thoughts and feelings]
to get out of the mess.
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i dont know what the ! mean though .. maybe he is surprised, he took freedom for granted , he didnt know he wont have it for ever.


was he ever free?!


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"was he ever free?!"

maybe he just read about freedom somewhere and he wants it!




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RE: the wind

isn't the desire for freedom innate? in us all?

a child saying "I want ___" and the parent says: "no"
I discovered my will for freedom the first time I heard} "No you may not __"

Your guy is dismembered!
what do u think that might signify?
and what about the "corruption" within?
the hand is his plan B? But it too is corrupted.
Where's the rest of him?!
I think his only hope is in reuniting his "self"
even if he has to go back to gather up his pieces.

has he had to deny parts of himself in order to get aloft? :balloons:

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yes, i think he has to give up of the rest of his 'heavier' body in order to give himself his best chance in reaching freedom.
his hand is not plan B, its the balloons that are plan B.

I discovered my will for freedom the first time I heard} "No you may not __"
i like that ^


he is corrupt! that what the city (society, government.. etc..) did to him, they tough him stuff that make him heavier from the inside, maybe thats whats making it impossible for him to be free? the stuff that they tough him?




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northfork Wrote:

yes, i think he has to give up of the rest of his 'heavier' body in order to give himself his best chance in reaching freedom.
his hand is not plan B, its the balloons that are plan B.


The balloons can't help if he doesn't have a hold on them.

northfork Wrote:

he is corrupt! that what the city (society, government.. etc..) did to him, they tough him stuff that make him heavier from the inside, maybe thats whats making it impossible for him to be free? the stuff that they tough him?


the stuff they taught him?
he has to dump the junk but instead he severed himself.
maybe he was having a problem integrating his thoughts & emotions?
cut off what doesn't fit?
I still think he must reconnect with himself.
Letting go of any part of himself makes him weaker.

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"Letting go of any part of himself makes him weaker"
thats a good point but what if there is no other way?

he cant remove the bad stuff that they tough him, its imbedded in him now.
the only hope is that his children wont have them cause no one will teach them this stuff.



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northfork Wrote:

"Letting go of any part of himself makes him weaker"
thats a good point but what if there is no other way?


I can't, I won't "separate myself" or "compromise myself".
Holding on to who I really am IS the goal.
If I can stay who I am inspite of it all, I WIN

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he cant remove the bad stuff that they tough{do you mean taught? him, its imbedded in him now.
the only hope is that his children wont have them cause no one will teach them this stuff.


I disagree.
He is aware of what is "his" and he can distinguish right from wrong
regardless of what he has been taught.

the thing he needs to teach the kids is a basic premise from which to view things
like "do unto others as you'd have them do unto you" and
ask "how well does this work for ALL Life in the Entire Universe?" {is this fair to all?
Teach them to question authority and most important, find new solutions.
Reject what needs to go and Never stay rooted in a system that doesn't work!

if only I had a stronger belief that there is a benevolent creator I wouldn't be so sad over losing my loved ones to death.
I look around me and see all the madness, the suffering ..
I have not enough faith that the creator of this earth is benevolent.

Maybe the only real "win" is not to follow anyone but to go out "doing things My Way" {I refuse to let go of parts of myself!

I won't let them change me! {that isn't winning, that is compromising one's self

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"He is aware of what is "his" and he can distinguish right from wrong
regardless of what he has been taught."

but this is the problem , he is not aware !

at least this is how i look at it



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northfork Wrote:

"He is aware of what is "his" and he can distinguish right from wrong
regardless of what he has been taught."

but this is the problem , he is not aware !

at least this is how i look at it


You always manage to make me think, I love that!
Maybe I over estimate his awareness?
It seems to me he is aware and that is the reason he is unhappy and seeking.

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i dont know, some times you are aware you are doing something wrong but still do it anyway.
for example , i had an exam a month ago , and i had a week to study for it, it was enough time.
but i was too lazy i simply didnt study! i was aware that i am not doing the right thing but still went along with it. i ended up not going to the exam (it was a repeted exam so i got my previous grade 66 L=:-( )

so i think sometimes even if you are aware that you are not doing the right thing, you still continue doing the wrong




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that is called self destructive behavior.
what it screams to me is,
you do not want to follow the path you have chosen.

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"you do not want to follow the path you have chosen."

maybe i do, but the ride currently sucks

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are you sure?
I got all the way thru college and inot my profession then I found out I hated it!

I wanted to become a probation officer but the system sucks you dry first.
I refused to change and I got fired just 8 shifts before I would have had tenure.
They kept all the money taken from my check for my retirement and I get none of it.
= fuck you very much!

I enjoyed my contact with the kids but the hours would have caused me to quit eventually.
No one told me I'd have to rotate shifts for the rest of my life! = No Fucking way!
I wanted to work 3 to 11pm, I even worked some graveyard shifts but
when they said I'd have rotate shifts for the rest of my life ..
work 3 months at each one:
7 am to 3 pm, 3 pm to 11 pm and 11pm to 7 am ... {fuck that!

Each job I've had has given me some new skill to take to the next job.
My next job after that was a bouncer at a gay women's bar.

How about going into teaching?

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teaching?! eh no way, i hate that, when the person i am teaching doesnt understand, i get way too angry
i hope i will like the destination my road is taking me to.
what was your favorite job? the bar?


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05-07-2007 12:59 AM
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I thought you liked tutoring!

favorite and job {those two words clash!

The bar was more fun but working at Juvenile Hall was more rewarding.
I liked to feel I "mattered."

With the bar there was always more people telling me what they didn't like!
Once I threw up my hands and walked out, left my ex to run it one week
by week's end, she'd spent all the money we needed in the register to make change!
I had to re-open the bar on just 60$!
there should have been $300 in each [of 3] register drawers.
The stupid bitch paid the workers out of the cash we needed to make change!
I'd have closed early rather than have to pay out the money we need to re-open!

the fact I got the doors open Every Week-end for 9 1/2 years is testimonial to my fortitude and resoursefulness.
My critics killed it in just one!

It is all a waste now, no one remembers A Little More Club.

I have a few letters from girls at juvenile hall.. thanking me for simple acts of kindness.
That was the job where I feel I made a difference.

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what is there now instead? a new club? do you have pictures of the old place?
so you were the owner, right?
i wish i was there. i am not gay though. could straight people enter too?

i like teaching small kids, as i used to do, but students.. thats different. i am not good at explaining things.




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what is there now instead? a new club?

last time i heard, it was an Antique Shop.
I have not been back in years. cant bare to think of it changed.
The houses behind, I am told, were demolished.
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do you have pictures of the old place?

I took my video camera up to the houses behind the bar, shot all around, in and out.
There are photos and a video from the bar.
I have a suit case [big enough to crawl inside of it] filled with photos and slides.
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so you were the owner, right?

I worked for gina as the door person, then I was the manager for Bill when he kicked her ass out.
Bill gave me a lease and let me bring in my own liquor license, not cuz I wanted that, it was because the alcohal beverave control agents were going to close us down.
I was running on h is license but we didn't share the same hours of business.
I bought a license and had to do all kinds of upgrading to get permitted for dancing and entertainment.
That's why it won't ever be a bar again, no one can jump thru the hoops the city created. new codes, new laws, no-can-do in that space.
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i wish i was there. i am not gay though. could straight people enter too?

not easily. I let Stuart in the booth with me and the girls were bitching about a straight man being there.
that is so hypocritical of them!
not being able to accept a person regardless of their gender!
that is the type of thinking that drove me out.
The bar couldn't exist without more customers and the women refused to let in any one outside their little clique so we died.
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i like teaching small kids, as i used to do, but students.. thats different. i am not good at explaining things.

In order to explain someting you first must fully understand it.
when ever you want to learn a thing, try to explain it to someone else.
I find that to be true especially when talking about the Brotherhood of Light Lessons.
I wish you'd read just the one book, called Course1
The Laws of Occultism (=the laws of what is hidden)
I'd love to talk to you about it.

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reading your latest post, sounds like you are going to be in pieces like the guy in your drawing    

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hehe.. funny

well i am getting better, maybe that guy in the pic is doing better now too ?!






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hehe.. funny

well i am getting better, maybe that guy in the pic is doing better now too ?!


I'm glad for both of you!

What if we [really are] "the architects of our own personal experiences" as Shirley MacLaine wrote?

"conceiving it" and "believing it" are prerequisites for "achieving it" but what if

what if all we need to do is "put it in our minds" to have it be real?

maybe now I can find a way to interest you in that book called The laws on Occultism?
It says:
by holding the thought the thing exists [on the astral plane] for as long as we hold the thought.
and ..
"if there is not too much resistance in our environment it will materialize."

you always want proof and I can offer many events, big and small.
try visualizing a parking space where you are going and hold that thought..
I imagine myself finding a place and I do.
Jill used to say "you have very good luck finding parking"

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